Distress

I just finished my mcr today. I m not quite satisfied with my result. Oh well, gotta work harder..

I m really tired. Do I have to act strong in front of them? I don't know if I have the energy to do so. But then, its my natural instinct to always act strong.I didnt want to act strong and stern and emotionless. I can't just collapse on you. I probably still don't trust you enough.

I am probably not as strong as you think or even I think. I am telling myself to stay strong. I probably need someone to talk to or lean on to show the weaker side of me. Sigh. I am not sure if this world is fair.

Such is life. Life goes on. Stay strong.

Fear. What are you afraid of? People asked me.  Some are scared of living things like lizards, cockroaches, some are afraid of height, some are afraid of the future. If you asked me , I can face anything at all. It's hard to know what I am afraid of. Deep down, emotions are my biggest fear, I think. I don't show it that much as I mentioned above. It's my natural instinct to stay strong and happy on the outside at least. I don't attach to things or people emotionally easily. I restrain myself. Break this wall and you will get the truth. It's very difficult. I know.

You made me think of myself.Reflections.

Stay strong. I will make it.